If only I did READ

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Originally written for: http://www.igotitcovered.org/2012/03/07/if-only-i-did-read/

I was flipping through my blue Physics text book, which had exactly 796 pages. “Oh God,” I whispered to myself. Will I really be asked to read 796 pages worth of Physics? And then will I be expected to understand the information, and later apply it? I most certainly did do all that and more in my school years, as I incessantly solved past papers and did random exercises to pass my exam.

I remember finding my Economics book in my bag too – another 900 paged monstrosity – oh and did I mention we had an entirely new one (almost equally healthy) to discuss the Macro part of it? Surely, I did not forget my favourite English Literature did I? Only three plays by William Shakespeare and a delightful novel by Tennyson, and a couple of others. Then there was Psychology, with that teacher who was such a hard task-master as we meandered through Freud and Jung and Erikson. As I look back at my academic years, I feel grateful for all the knowledge I acquired and can implement. One book however, got slightly overlooked.

The Qur’an.

Totally overlooked, in fact. Where I learnt the principles of e=mc squared and all those rules of trigonometry or calculus, I think someone forgot to teach me the rules of Islam beyond the customary Salah and fasting.

That one book that Allah sent down, and made incumbent on every Muslim to read and apply in their lives. It’s not like I didn’t read the Qur’an at all, of course. A Qur’an teacher came home every evening to teach me how to read the Arabic alphabet. He corrected my ‘Qaaf’ and ‘Haa’ and I happily repeated after him. I’m afraid I never wondered what the words that those letters consisted of meant. Qur’an was to be repeated and portions of it, like the Ayat-ul-Kursi, were to be learnt by heart and read at night, but that was it. In Ramadan, many in the family would read the entire book in only one month but there was hardly ever any talk of knowing what Allah was trying to tell us!

So my childhood passed and I grew up into a confused Muslim who didn’t really know what Allah wanted from her. I certainly knew what Sigmund Freud said, but I didn’t know what the most perfect human being, our beloved Nabi, Muhammed (sallAllahu alayhi wa sallam) said. Where I read thousands of pages of curriculum books, and thousands more of novels that I liked to read, I couldn’t (or wasn’t made to read) that ONE book which consists of Allah’s Words themselves, and sent through His chosen Prophet Muhammed (sallAllahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) – which by the way, was far thinner than my ugly Economics heavyweight.

I remember pondering over the words in books of psychology and trying to understand and apply them, although with the Qur’an, it was just repeat, repeat, repeat, and it wasn’t until I grew much older that I began to realize what a major faux pas had been committed! Why are our children made to read everything – everything except the Qur’an? We teach them swimming, ballet, French and Tae Kwando yet we care little if they learn about what Allah wants to convey?

Why do we flounder like blabbering nitwits when people ask us about Jihad and Hijab and Salat in the Qur’an and not know exactly what is said, and promise to check with ‘Imam Google’? I am certainly not saying knowledge of the world must not be acquired. Indeed it is essential. But why do we so easily forgo the wealth of knowledge concealed inside the pages of the Qur’an, which in fact, should be the priority of all knowledge? Shouldn’t that be a part of our lives as well?

Yes some of us had Islam as a subject but all we did was skim over the subject superficially and I distinctly remember that it wasn’t considered an important subject because it would not help with your university applications. In all those years of schooling, why didn’t we, those that are Muslims in a Muslim country, understand the Qur’an even once?

Why isn’t Qur’an integrated into our lives?  Why is it so deliberately overlooked? Please don’t give me the explanation that the Quran is complicated and difficult to understand! Surely, so is Psychology and Chemistry and Sociology? It is no wonder that the Muslim youth being brought up in these so called ‘good’ schools have lost their identity in terms of religion, its values and lifestyle! A lot of young girls don’t cover simply because they don’t KNOW Allah wants them to!

Most of the misconceptions, amongst Muslims and non-Muslims rise because of ignorance created through not having read our primary sources of Islamic law. It is an entire system of education that I have been deprived of while growing up. As I inch towards understanding and applying the vast treasure of knowledge in the best book in the world and of course the perusal of the explanatory notes and practical examples from the hadith, I hope and pray that my children and the future generations will not live in this darkness of ignorance and will be fortunate enough to READ. IQRA.


19 thoughts on “If only I did READ

  1. I wonder if you had to come to this realisiation by yourself in order to appreciate it? Then again, there’s no reason why you couldn’t have been encouraged to make more sense of it at an earlier age.

    • Excellent point Lorna. Thanks for reading and commenting. Perhaps I wouldn’t have been able to appreciate it had I read it young. But I do love Shakespeare and Milton and understand Freud (somewhat). No reason why quran being the centre of Islam was neglected.

      • That’s true, but better late than never! Perhaps now the Quran will mean more to you throughout the rest of your life than any of the other inspirational texts you’ve read. For one thing, it’s made you more determined to pass it on to future generations at an earlier age than you had it, and they may well be grateful for that in years to come.

  2. Allahu akbar, this piece is the best i have read so far. its so true and full of facts, it touched my heart. Well done mehmudah

  3. I finished the Quran several times when I was younger..in English and in Arabic. But I think that if I read it now it would mean SO much more to me!

    Great post my friend.

  4. So, at which moment in your life that you thought and felt about not only reading Quran but in understanding it in its purest form also practicing what is being ordered by Allah in the Holy Quran? What was the reason behind this paradigm shit? Did anyone inspire you or, was it a feeling that came from within you one fine morning or, was it a dream that came true? Just curious.

    • Actually I’m yet to read fully and implement. But Alhamdulillah I realized a lot of important things after 11th grade. That’s when i felt something wasn’t right with me. No one particular person inspired me guess it was just everything together you know? Allah willed it and it changed my life.

  5. I am sure every one can relate to it. very well written, such a keeper it is. Most of us just read the Quran without knowing the potential meanings of verses. I realized very late to implement the basic knowledge i had about Islam in my life, and started learning more afterwards,, but suddenly, now, i have turned back to previous state. Status of my Imaan is completely inert. Perhaps i started learning it as a whole in one go, so i am left wiht nothing now…

    Every day i think , i ll start over again, go through the “paradigm shift” phase,, and its been an year now that i am thinking all this… every day i think i ll go and start reciting Quran with translations,, but……………. I don’t know why i am procrastinating.

    • Thanks for reading and for your comment. I understand what you mean. Just the realization is a step in the right way.

      Start really small. With a verse everyday maybe? Only 5 minutes or so… When we look at the whole book it appears extremely overwhelming.

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